I bought a couch today! I know it sounds like such a mundane thing, but it was actually quite rewarding. It's an awful green color, but it was cheap and it's comfortable so it'll do. It's only five more weeks before Draco come home.
Nov. 9th, 2009
Nov. 5th, 2009
I absolutely adore fireworks even if they are rather lonely this year.
[Private to Self]
While I know that wishing is never a healthy thing for someone to do, I can't help but wish things were different for me and for my family. I hate to see them hurting and despite all of my best efforts I doubt we will ever be a cohesive unit again. I don't feel welcome with any of them. They all have their own lives, my own son included. I thought I could be welcomed into Ted's family however stupid that may have been at the time, but it seems the Blacks have come to tear that down for me as well.
I want a re-do. I want to go back and do it right. No use in feeling sorry for myself, but the fireworks really do remind me how lonely I am.
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[Private to Self]
While I know that wishing is never a healthy thing for someone to do, I can't help but wish things were different for me and for my family. I hate to see them hurting and despite all of my best efforts I doubt we will ever be a cohesive unit again. I don't feel welcome with any of them. They all have their own lives, my own son included. I thought I could be welcomed into Ted's family however stupid that may have been at the time, but it seems the Blacks have come to tear that down for me as well.
I want a re-do. I want to go back and do it right. No use in feeling sorry for myself, but the fireworks really do remind me how lonely I am.
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Nov. 1st, 2009
[Private to Bellatrix]
Bella.. we need to talk.
Bella.. we need to talk.
Oct. 31st, 2009
( Nymphadora Tonks )
[Private to Regulus]
You knew didn't you? You knew about all of this.. this whole entire time. You never said a word to me. I can't believe... I thought you were the one person in this family I could trust. I guess I was wrong.
You knew didn't you? You knew about all of this.. this whole entire time. You never said a word to me. I can't believe... I thought you were the one person in this family I could trust. I guess I was wrong.
Oct. 29th, 2009
[Private to Ted]
Why is your daughter telling me to stop seeing you? Is it because she is afraid she is going to lose you to me? She is sitting there blaming me for both of your future deaths when I have done nothing wrong. Is this about my family? Is she afraid they will kill you because you are a muggleborn? I don't understand why she is so upset about me seeing you. I didn't sign up for this.
Why is your daughter telling me to stop seeing you? Is it because she is afraid she is going to lose you to me? She is sitting there blaming me for both of your future deaths when I have done nothing wrong. Is this about my family? Is she afraid they will kill you because you are a muggleborn? I don't understand why she is so upset about me seeing you. I didn't sign up for this.
I am glad that I am alive.
[Private to self]
Did I do that to them? Did I do that to my family? I could never live with myself if I had torn them apart, but Lucius never loved me like that man did. But Draco.. poor.. I can't..
[Private to Draco]
I can't wait to have you here with me this coming break. I am working hard on the flat, and I've found two jobs to help pay for everything. I love you.
[Private to Druella, Bellatrix and Andromeda]
I found a job. Two of them actually, and I thought it would be best to hear it from me rather than from someone else. I'm filing paperwork at this little print press during the week in the mornings and I'm working at Flourish and Blott's during the week at nights and on the weekends. It doesn't pay a whole lot, but it's going to buy me all the furniture I need and I'll be able to take care of Draco this way.
[Private to Regulus]
We snogged, but I opted to get it out of the way first thing rather than let it linger in my mind. I really like him a lot. He's like no one I've ever known and he's the complete opposite of everything Lucius ever represented. I'm not sure I know what I'm doing. I feel like I'm going to muck it all up. It's been so long since anything like this happened to me.
[Private to self]
Did I do that to them? Did I do that to my family? I could never live with myself if I had torn them apart, but Lucius never loved me like that man did. But Draco.. poor.. I can't..
[Private to Draco]
I can't wait to have you here with me this coming break. I am working hard on the flat, and I've found two jobs to help pay for everything. I love you.
[Private to Druella, Bellatrix and Andromeda]
I found a job. Two of them actually, and I thought it would be best to hear it from me rather than from someone else. I'm filing paperwork at this little print press during the week in the mornings and I'm working at Flourish and Blott's during the week at nights and on the weekends. It doesn't pay a whole lot, but it's going to buy me all the furniture I need and I'll be able to take care of Draco this way.
[Private to Regulus]
We snogged, but I opted to get it out of the way first thing rather than let it linger in my mind. I really like him a lot. He's like no one I've ever known and he's the complete opposite of everything Lucius ever represented. I'm not sure I know what I'm doing. I feel like I'm going to muck it all up. It's been so long since anything like this happened to me.
Oct. 28th, 2009
[Private to Regulus]
I think I might have a date tonight. Normally I would tell my sisters about it, but I'm not sure they would exactly approve. I know you're not a girl, but well... I have a date tonight! I'm all jittery.
I think I might have a date tonight. Normally I would tell my sisters about it, but I'm not sure they would exactly approve. I know you're not a girl, but well... I have a date tonight! I'm all jittery.
Oct. 25th, 2009
[Private to Regulus]
Have you ever thought about trying to change your name?
Have you ever thought about trying to change your name?
Oct. 21st, 2009
I am, and will be unavailable for comment.
[Private to Draco]
It seems you have an Uncle after all. I will be out of reach for the next few days. Do not worry over it. I will be back by the beginning of next week.
[Private to Ted]
Do you want to go somewhere?
[Private to Draco]
It seems you have an Uncle after all. I will be out of reach for the next few days. Do not worry over it. I will be back by the beginning of next week.
[Private to Ted]
Do you want to go somewhere?
Oct. 19th, 2009
( Andromeda )
Oct. 16th, 2009
[Private to Pansy]
I think it's time we had a conversation. I know we haven't had the best of relationships over the last few years and oftentimes I blamed you for my husband's digression. I wasn't there for you and you deserved to have a mother to turn to, even if you are not my own I should have been that for you. I am sorry.
I think it's time we had a conversation. I know we haven't had the best of relationships over the last few years and oftentimes I blamed you for my husband's digression. I wasn't there for you and you deserved to have a mother to turn to, even if you are not my own I should have been that for you. I am sorry.
Oct. 14th, 2009
I chopped off all of my hair.
I don't know what got into me.
[Private to Draco]
I've found a place for us. It's not much, but it's something. It's a little flat near Grimmauld so I can be near your grandmother. It has a balcony and a little garden out back and you'll get your own room. It will be ready for us by Christmas hols.I think in the meantime I may try to get some help.
We still have to tell your father. I'm not sure if you wanted to do that yourself or if I should step in.
I love you so much.
I don't know what got into me.
[Private to Draco]
I've found a place for us. It's not much, but it's something. It's a little flat near Grimmauld so I can be near your grandmother. It has a balcony and a little garden out back and you'll get your own room. It will be ready for us by Christmas hols.
We still have to tell your father. I'm not sure if you wanted to do that yourself or if I should step in.
I love you so much.
Oct. 13th, 2009
[Private to Sirius Black]
How do you do it?
How do you do it?
Oct. 11th, 2009
Hmm. I'm not sure I've had my name in large bold letters like that before. Yes, the Black family has been a subject of press fodder for some time, but never myself directly.
Oct. 10th, 2009
I am not sure if rumors have begun to spread or not, but I thought it might be time to put an old one to rest.
My name is Narcissa Black and I am most certainly not dead.
My name is Narcissa Black and I am most certainly not dead.
Oct. 7th, 2009
[Private to Antonin]
I had this brought to me. I wasn't sure if you have one or not, but I think I remember that you do. I'm staying with the Lestranges for the time being. They are going to help me get on my feet and get me my son back. I need to figure out what I am going to do for money.
They are already asking awkward questions. I told Bellatrix it was you who took me, but I also told her not to touch you... not that I think she could, really. How much of what happened should I divulge to the general public?
I had this brought to me. I wasn't sure if you have one or not, but I think I remember that you do. I'm staying with the Lestranges for the time being. They are going to help me get on my feet and get me my son back. I need to figure out what I am going to do for money.
They are already asking awkward questions. I told Bellatrix it was you who took me, but I also told her not to touch you... not that I think she could, really. How much of what happened should I divulge to the general public?